I never trusted love before. Because every relationship I had before him was different. They never taught me how to stay strong when everything is falling apart. They never taught me how important it is to prior the happiness of the person you love. They never taught me to keep striving for better things to achieve and to keep the relationship strong and beautiful. But with him, it feels like I've seen life in a complete different way. He makes me feel beautiful and happy with myself. Although at times I feel like shit and he could be more shittier to me about it and perhaps maybe he just didn't like how I fuss about little things that aren't important. His love is a rare kind of love I've ever felt. Sometimes it's good, sometimes it can make me go crazy. When we fight, feels like world war three is coming. It's true. We hate each other to the point of killing each other just to see who'd win in the end. But the more I hate him, the more I love him. I hate him enough to love him to a point of passion that unhinges my soul. I know him well enough to even accept his weaknesses and imperfections and those are the things that makes me want to stay with him because to me, once I've seen deficiency, I will want to mend what's lack and make it better. Of course I will not succeed easily most times, but maybe just maybe when he sees the effort I gave he'll know that that's how much I love him. It is hard to describe how strong my love is for him. If there is any other better word than "love", I'd use it and tell it to him everyday. I want to be the most essential part of his life and be his constant reminder of how it's such a beautiful life he's living in with me in it because to me, he is.
I can't even begin to describe what I love about him so much that makes me crazy enough to stay and fight for this love. He is of course the apple of my eye. He makes me so fucking mad sometimes that I can't even tolerate his bullshits, but I still am crazy about him. I am certainly sure that he feels the same way about me too and we both are just completely crazy about each other. Just having him makes my journey in life so much interesting. He never fails to keep me interested. I will always want to look at him, I will always want to touch him, I will always want to kiss his lips, I will always want to feel his warmth pressing against me and I will always want to love him. Knowing he will always stand by me through whatever obstacles we'd face through is more than enough. The commitment I have in a relationship with him is still there. I am still passionate about him from the start. I can't wait to start a life with him.
